I wish i could read and write faster
so, i dont know if my journals are actually visible here on slashdot. but i post elsewhere too. so, whatever.
anyway, i wish i could read and write faster. there are only so many hours in a day.
i really have no idea how other people do it.
i have found out that i think slowly, talk slower, and write even more slowly.
i have written for a long time since 2002, when i blossomed. my latest calculation arrived at 30,000 hours, figuring 4 hours per day, and with a WPH (words per hour) of 500.
that seems low though, as i remember doing a test, and arrived at something like 120 WPM? but ive also noticed when i write something and put it into MS word, its around 1 hour per A4 page. i could be wrong though, my previous estimation was twice the amount.
but obviously i think when i write inbetween words / sentences.
and this is me having to admit im a loser.
from the time i got internet access (in 1995, when i was 11 years old) i slowly increased my online time, only to arrive at 12 per hours per day in 1999. yes, i was going to school then, but as i got home at 5 in the afternoon, i surfed until 5 the next day.
this might seem impossible, but recent youtube-videos say im a lot like todays youth ("generation alpha"). supposedly they are to go to bed at 9 in the evening from their parents, but stay up until after midnight.
i dont have a lot of memories from that time, which is both because i was bullied (8 long years) but also because i wasn't mentally developed yet.
i remember one particular time in 9th grade, close to graduation. we had a history lesson, and the truants asked "what happens if you havent done your homework?", the teacher replied "a definitive minus".
i then sat right next to the door, as id lost my 2 geek friends, and was always insecure. but i also liked talking to the teachers. as the class ended, i speeded to the next one.
when i get there, theres somehow another redhead behind me. id never actually noticed him speak or even seen him since first grade. i dont get how he did it. he then gets up in my face, and yells "A DEFINITIVE MINUS".
yes, there was one other time with him. at about the same place, he goes up to me and says, in delight, "what a beautiful double-chin you have". great.
anyway, i have only been happy for about 3 of my 41-year spanning lifetime.
first it was with xhyljeta, and then, with bella.
and this is me admitting more what a loser i am.
i have never actually had a wage. from 2013 to 2015, i worked, for free, at 4 different places, almost every day.
anyway, i have written about this <a href="https://svenskadikter.com/Rpg">previously</a> so wont go into much detail about it again.
but one of these places was fountain house stockholm. i slowly worked myself up in rank, but it didnt feel like that. the staff still treated me as badly, and i didnt fit into the general consensus.
no, when one of the few alpha males yelled out an inane joke (worse than any cringe meme you can imagine) at the morning meeting every day i never laughed, but almost everyone else in the room did.
to my surprise, in 2018, the boss at the place went up to me, out of the blue, and said "tomas, in 4 years, youll be in charge here".
it seems i havent written about this in the open. i have a quite private blog (its read by only 1 other person) which i divulge many many hours into, since 2016.
as for xhyljeta, we were to get engaged on christmas 2018 at the place. as volounteers and staff arent allowed to be romantically involved, i was to hand her the ring and shed quit her job the same day.
anyway, im tired yet again. so ill wrap this up. thats another story though. cya <3 :|
it does seem that i read even slower than i write. i cant "skim", i dont like it.
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