Liminal spaces
LIMINAL SPACES
i know this vid is a year old so no one will care. i have latina roots (actually, spaniard + african = mastiff [my grandmother was from sierra leone]) so im really spiritual. it can also be related to me being a pisces in the moon. they go through the greatest struggles, but if they manage to overcome them, they turn into the most influential people on earth. anyway i have many stories, but i dont write / act in the usual way so mostly i just piss off people. at least guys, gals seem to like it for awhile but get tired of me quickly.
anyway, as for liminal spaces and general creepy things. ever since i was a kid ive been afraid of the dark. i dont know exactly what year it started, but i now know for certain i was abused while i was in deep sleep. i wont say more as i dont want to point any fingers. but one day everything was fine and the next it wasnt. i was so little though and undeveloped mentally, so i dont have many memories from that time. i always needed a lamp turned on from that time fowards
since a month ago, i am thankfully no longer afraid of the dark. but watching these vids, especially when it gets darker outside, is not healthy for me. i get white flashes in my vision. a week ago i saw a flash with my eyes closed, that came right out of the sky. its hard to explain, but like little blurry things come every now and then. this is refered to as "ectoplasm", which is what dust is made of. dust is made by lichens, and spiders eat them.
so if someone is paranoid or afraid of the dark, the best resolution is to just clean your apartment a lot, shower every day, and use fresh clothes. as for spiders, it is said if you kill one, it will rain the next day. once i dripped shampood wet water from my hair onto one in my bathroom. it was huge and had been living there for a long time. i know it was stupid but i was just a teen then. it turned upside down and didnt move anymore. afterwards it rained for 11 days.
so spiders have a lot of supernatural powers. especially if you see one in the ceiling, but as i said killing one isnt a good idea. so try to grab it with a handkerchief and drop it outside your window. this is the main reason for sleep paralysis, combined with weed. as ive never smoked weed it has never happened to me, even if many many other weird things have. and some are impossible to explain in layman terms. thats why i make art, music, and poetry.
and the paranoia got worse 20 years later. someone (again not saying who) would come by my bed when id almost fallen asleep. and if i had my body turned to the wall, they would always touch my butt. i never said no as they had a great power over me. they are dead nowadays and im happy for that.
but this made my fear of the dark worse. i finally figured out, if i layed in a 22 degree angle it didnt feel like someone was watching me, as i had a view of both left and right. anyway as they say "när man talar om trollen så står de i farstun" (power of manifestation / law of attraction), so now it feels like a spirit is touching my hair. i also tried putting my bed in the centre of the room at a 45 degree angle to the walls, that helped.
anyway i am now creeping myself out, so ill continue watching, or rather, doing something else that doesnt creep me out even more.
reference
www.youtube.com/watch?v=fyjbSAuCsow
av Heartgold Worldstone (ris och ros)
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