Torture leads to existance

saying pain is the answer
makes it too easy
its easy to insult someone
just call them fat
works if theyre legitimely fat
or skinny or muscular or just
normal weight,
it breaks so
many people
otherwise what ive seen lately
is just calling them crazy
if they express
any view beyond
the mainstream.
it takes effort to appreciate
someone for who they are
for their internal beauty
for their real talent
its easy to spam likes
and say "beautiful brown eyes"
but i dont think many fall for that
and i dont see people spamming
it either
the thing is
i was so fucked up before
i got my first ban on a website
before then, i was called
drunk psychopath
thats not a good compliment
but i didnt care, i was so gone then
it got better over time
but then worse yet again
my psychopath mind thought though
the worse you treat someone
the better theyll eventually get
so i used that as an excuse
no, you get insight from... insight
looking within, taking it easy
resting instead of sleeping pills
making art not blowing
up buildings or people
making something
better of the world
instead of relying
on sadism
or masochism
or self denial
or shifting your problems to others
shift your problems to art
music poetry theatre vlogging
anything but other people
even if no one seemingly cares
dont get discouraged
the angels and gods are listening
they just cant be there every second
nudging you along
but if you make a great masterpiece
which everyone is capable of
theyll be proud of you
and award you
nothing is ever hopeless
when my wife was a kid
she got raped over and over
she eventually made
that person stop it
but it was a big work
she said it took
her 15 whole years
but she has a heart of gold
and sees ahead of time
instead of seeing how to
waste your money and
people and your mind
most easily
like they say
art is the proper purpose
creation not destruction