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as for the cross video, it reminds me of my VCTPSD (war veteran despair). it feels like beyond rape. im free from it now though. i went clean. in so many ways. i also work out. so even if i get a small amount of anxiety, i do calisthinetics for some time even in bed and then its alright. it might take an hour or 2 but i got all the time in the world like anyone. today i worked out about 2 hours, i was so fucking tired, and now its ok. i am addicted to coffee though, not to appease others, i think its so amazing and such a nice herb. i dont like much other stuff. i mostly drink tapwater, milk and bloodorange juice. i dont like drinking beer. being in a lalaworld. i do love computer games. online ones are better. its nice graphics like high on lsd or whatever (never tried it, im sure it would be more like a nightmare) and you got people to talk to and interact with. i know when youre drunk enough IRL turns to a computer game. but then id rather be a geek than a drunkard. who run the world? geeks! geeks!