so. out of bad gets good

so i just couldnt fall asleep yesterday

so i go down with a chair next to the 

closed door to the staffs place, community place

and i get internet access!

so i download stardew valley

and it just tells me so much

if im not online

then i dont need to appease people

numbers do nothing for me

so i upload my music and tiktok videos to a bunch of sites

but it doesnt give me anything

sure you can speak of the matrix trap

but tv has never been anything for me

maybe in 1990 when it was some animes on tv

then in 2007 when i watched mythbusters

but except that, no

9/11 was a big eyeopener

not to corruption

but i got home

turned on the news

which i dont remember doing

but i  did that

and i saw through it

didnt need no 2 hour videos with 

hatespeech on bitchute for that

i just realized it

i am INTP with NI dominance

so my brain is like a huge

computer a mainframe

a quantum computer

and i just understand things

my rising sign is capricorn

and theyre the wisest sign

anyway

back to stardew valley!

when i have an offline game

i dont need to talk

i dont need to impress

i dont need to yell out

i dont need to trade

i just play and enjoy it

so if what people say is true

that life is being happy

playing computergames makes me happy

art music poetry doesnt

poetry does the most

but still not as much as games

i have already transcended as much as possible

we cant fight CBDC

its coming

so just

enjoy the ride

oh

one more thing

listening to music that you like

and playing computer games

thats heaven to me

not appeasing people

because people arent happy for long

they have emotions

they turn bitter

they yell you out

they punish you

they suspend you

they ban you

people - no thanks

anyway

deleting my porn off my harddrive

i downloaded so much

oh great

just because i made that song

people basically just say

BRA

thats it

wow

alcoholics R us

lots of important ^___^

anyway

a good armchair is worth its weight in gold

now i dont have a good one

im borderline after all

i had authority vs the psychiatric staff

after the coke though and still

but not so here

when i took coke

i became one

just ego illusion

i guess this is how everyone else

lives their lives

im not an alcoholic though

so no bitterness

just infinite loneliness

like nothing i do matters

i told someone they shouldnt spam their likes

i got the reply 

"i need to advertise my page"

jesus christ

egotism

anyway

ill play more stardew valley! ^___^

my dip wont last the entire week

longer days

more filled maybe

just different

dont know how ill survive that

miss economy wont give me none

and this was before the coke

it was with bella

she was so good

that nothing compares

"these wounds will never heal"

"its amazing how much you can do without"

