"you always have 
your hair in 
a different way"
an old psychiatric nurse told me
the last time i was 
locked up for being crazy
i asked for it myself actually
im at a housing now
where youre allowed 
to ask for help
instead of being tortured 
by the side effects
of neuroleptics
in there they torture 
you in other ways
but its good too
because theres all these people
who feel the best and the worst
so you can get friends
at least for the moment
one woman had a blog
and we blogged together for awhile
then as usual i freaked her out
and she deleted it
that has happened more than once
to say the least
but all these women
i thought i ruined
they still love me
since im wonderful at first
then i freak out at them
an old damage.....
i realized it
when i looked on 
allyekhrahs 
deviantart page
some year ago
there it was
a triptych
and i did a huge 
book of triptchs
some years after 
shed uploaded that image
so they are still with me
i love you all
my fans
my lovers
in mind
not much body
in mind
in mind
hamletwytch 
once said
"youre beautiful 
through words"
the sweetest 
compliment
except for my 
hair up there
i dont care for it
but it always 
falls differently
seemingly perfect
once when i woke up 
with julia in bed
she asked 
"did you just get a haircut?"
to be appretiated for 
your looks is one thing
for your mind 
is something 
completely 
different
so be free
be creative
be energy
be happy
make people happy
before its too late
the earth doesnt 
have many years left
love whoever its 
possible to love
say hi to people 
on the streets
go to pubs and cafes and 
try to spark up a conversation
write instead of liking things
on social media
the world doesnt 
need more shallowness
the world needs genuinity
what i love the most
anyway
truth
pure truth
distilled truth
like poetry
i love all you poets i follow
you brighten my day
make it into something more
than just ordinary
you never know 
what youre gonna get
when it comes to 
art music and poetry
but its always wonderful
like chocolate
like chocolate
i love you ixcacao!