quite empty here
the last person who really 
updated svenskadikter or 
immortalpoetry except for me 
was sten viking
it was in february 2020 i think
so thats 3 years ago
i dont understand my darkness
i dont understand the light
the creativity either
but i was recommended this site by a troll
so i guess ill update here
i dont know if anyone visits this page except for the trolls
over on svenska dikter i got one, just 1 comment, from someone who liked my poetry
then some year later, a troll which said my writing reminded him of farsi poetry
so that was a great compliment
mostly its just lonely
as they say "writing, if anything, is a lonely life
because you have to face eternity, or the lack of it, alone"
i do not get any emotional impact from writing poetry
sometimes when i seldom write stories, the ending phrase gives a small tear in my eye
thinking through my life, i am really a stone heart
i have no delved deep into books except haruki murakami who is a great author, but i have since i was 7 years old (now im soon 40) searched for the truth
anyway, thats all for now
hope you enjoy my writings
i will try to change so on svenskadikter its only swedish ones, and only english ones here
i hope, i hope, someone out there reads what i write
i do not truly know it though, so it is real lonely
but it is not lonely when writing
same goes for photoshopping, which ive almost stopped with, because it requires "too much processing power" for my INTP/NI dominance brain
with making music its easier, since ableton live is such a masterpiece
i prefer just writing all day though
as a pisces in the moon (moon sign tells of your soul) i have gone through many hardships in life, and still do
and i dont have much faith in the afterlife
i guess now i will rebirth as myself when i was 6 years old, with all my wisdom intact
thus id say that wisdom is soul, and emotions is body
its fleshy after all emotions
as i was going to mention, i have not really had emotions
when i did have emotions, maybe when i was 5 years or younger, i was on autopilot, i was not concious, my conciousness hadnt developed yet
i have met one of my kindergarten teachers later, she sad when i was 1-2 years old, id "run around and scream in joy", this i do not remember
then i was a free soul, like an aurora borealis, but i was not sentient
sometimes (er, often) i freak out like that, just be myself, my core, and the core, is all your rebirths
through art it can be revealed to you and others
now AI art is on the horizon
since i often get deja vu, i remember doing that quantum computer assisted art before, because i have created about 20 pieces, and i made them before
but now i show them to others, i am not alone
i always have tracey and bella and my mom and my sisters and my dad and many people i have met on my side
they like being on the side though, peeking into my world
though, it does seem that no-one truly wants me to be happy, because then i am just happy, i dont question things, i dont make art
because i was happy all day, id spend time being happy
if i get abyss-like despair for several hours per day, then i create better art WHEN I DO feel happy again
i sort of dont believe in that though
if im inspired, if ive intaken a new persons art or music or poetry, if im in love, then i create the best
art does not come from pain, it comes from insight
so, anyway......

<font size="6">welcome to my world</font>

ill try exporting 
my plethora of 
english poems 
to this site
i will basically 
take it over lol
but eventhough ive ignored 
this site FOR MONTHS at a time
not even thinking of it
no updates were 
present when i returned

hi
i am seas
adamantine seas
i am the king of neptune
happy to be an acquaintance