hey. ive played #mirageonlineclassic and especially #runescape a lot. it might not mean a lot to people, but when i was most lonely, even playing a necromancer in diablo II with all my summons and undead made me feel less lonely. corona was real tough and im happy i survived it. the vaccine ruined my spine, so sometimes im 177 centimeters long, sometimes im much shorter, my spine "gets" anxiety every now and then now. anyway, im off the strongest neuroleptics, but i still have a neuroleptic injection im going to get tomorrow. im also moving in 2 days, and ive worried SO much about it, i could almost not fall asleep, and when i cant, my world falls apart. and you know what? i started praying, just cusped my hands together, and i got some energy from it eventhough since i started smoking cigarillos my hands are always cold although they never were that before no matter how much #anxiety i had so i started writing my will. anyway, just a short ramble. try out #MMORPG games if you havent, theyre a saviour, and it can be fun, same fun as drinking with mates or chasing likes or doing makeup and selecting clothes. theres so much to choose from. gaming is cool! i dont think i need it anymore though with how im feeling right now, but tomorrow will probably be different. im not really in pain at all, because i try to take care of myself. like #madonna said on #rayoflight "pain is a warning that something is wrong". im a really guy:y guy, have no emotions, but what i do have, is logical deduction. when im ill or in mental pain, i try to figure out, how did i happen to get here? then i solve it in just a single thought sometimes, or change around my diet, or start walking more or drinking more orange juice or whatever. its easy to be healthy! be yourself, everyone else already exists!