my normal and quirky existance

my life is a 1000 piece puzzle
except its a 1000 puzzles
and they change order 
all the time
no rhyme
no reason
but this world is still real normal
to a boring degree
but how it works
the inner workings
is beyond my understanding
always when i get 10 pieces
and maybe 2 fit together
i am given another puzzle
puzzling
enigmatizing
enticing?
maybe
its my life
all mine
and bellas
forever
shes the only one
who understood me
the pain of anxiety
despair
for hours and hours
shed had it for weeks
i cant imagine
but i can imagine loving someone
so outmost beautiful on the inside
and her outside reflected it too
she said i had the softest 
tenderst skin ever
we barely touched
we had sex a few times
and up came rhiannon and kirin
my lovelies
the best of the best
......and ive never met them
it was amazing with bella
and no
im not giving you up
no matter what¨
jag älskar dig bella!
and when we got together
all the pieces fit
every single 1 
million of them
so this is to puzzlers
never give up
find the clues
solve the riddle
make poems
make people happy
even if its only other poets
print a book with them in it
read to people randies or whoever
get them impressed bedazzled
anything
just
make
people
happy
like i made bella happy
make people happy
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3