be careful what you wish for you might just get it

so i got a friend
she had as much 
anxiety as me
we connected
then we didnt have 
anything to talk about
its weird that it 
turns into that
we were the best 
of friends for awhile
then she started asking
for food money things
i gave because i thought 
there would be 
something back
hell no
she still comes around 
asking for the same shit
i cant understand how someone 
whos gone through 
so much torment 
can be such a bad person
so she came around just now
i told her shes not my friend
you need to reciprocate
she just said 
"re, re, re..." 
in confusion
and walked away 
with her head 
in shame
its hard with 
relationships
i thought 
this was 
for real
i guess its true 
what they say 
when you hit 40
everything goes 
downhill
mental health
physical health
friends
family
luck
all of it
im at the point of no return
and theres no getting back
to how it was before bella
or with bella
its all 
down
hill