sloppy

i know i know
ive turned sloppy 
as an artist
and being an artist 
is being perfection
theres not much left of me
since im an artist 
first and foremost
if thats gone
im just a shell
im listening to really 
beautiful music
that i havent heard in awhile
and it doesnt "give" 
me anything
i could just as well 
listen to nothing
i am dead, stone cold, 
dead, dead, dead