Good deja vu
so
a swedish vis poet
has a song about
"sometimes you
get tired of
yourself"
and i dont think
it gets better
all the time
everyone is in
the struggle
so the last
few years
since i met bella
ive mostly only
listened to
youtube
mixes
but i miss
the old days
lying comfily in bed
listening to such
a wide variety of music
anyway, boring detail
i stopped with fragmin
thinking i didnt need it
then i fell apart today
my body heated up
and my legs
feel like
stone
so the blood is clotting
this is not good
and i realized
the time with
tracey wasnt
that good
it was like
when i was
choleric
"strika på hjälp
där ingen finns
och hör"
"when you go black
you never go back"
beyond this stupidity
of being pissed off
and swearing
and utter complete
stupidity
i started vlogging
i thought i was
out of the
karmic loop
but nope
and wouldnt you know
with neuroleptics
each time you relive something
the exact same results
will happen every time
i only remember one
single time it got
different
i think its in the
middle of the nanochip
so my legs feel real bad
they felt sorta bad
like this a year ago
with extreme anxiety
but not this weird
im scared =(
anyway
tracey doesnt give
a fuck about me
she recieves loosh
for everything i write
thats about it
and... im not lonely anymore
i dont really need her
and lady Ks powers are immense
so i thought like
i dont want to see her name
on the login screen
boom
everyone keeps spamming me
with tomas tomas han han
alll the time
and... i dont really
have a sexuality
when i write sexual
i figure i am gods
gift to women
and they should
all bow down to
my supreme masculity
anyway
i feel like shit
i havent slept for
2½ days
so not much anxiety at all
but still OCD in many forms
anyway
cant bother writing anymore
goodnight
whoever cares
if theres someone
somewhere
somehow
av Heartgold Worldstone (ris och ros)
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