The story of-how i met julia and bella
so what i said in a vid today if you dont wanna watch em alllllll.
basically, i remember now.
before i got *any* OCD at all people still treated me the same way.
especially at school. 8 fucking years.
except, this is related to when i got my first computer.
nothing strange then. except a computer in 1994
costed like 20000kr. uh. thats more than a full salary.
except my dad was desperate to give me one (i didnt ask for it).
to teach me that stealing a few coins from him was BLOODY MURDER.
so he wanted to teach me a lesson. except im not a junkie so
i got nothing of his knifesouth creole.
i know there are people who are close to you who
manipulate your whole reality.
so he bought a stolen property
from his bestie at work for 4000
(he used to have several phones
which he often didnt answer
because of paranoira)
except, ghost in the machine is real.
so i got the energy from him.
not much later i made my first
pic with a demo of photoshop 3.0
it was an illustration of the gamma radiation from a black hole.
then i wasnt sentient so i didnt know what i created.
before i started with drugs in 2019 i still wasnt.
i just made shit and had no idea where it came from.
i was told that i was the greatest photographer in sweden.
but just like my mum i am cursed to not get recognition
or money for my art. that changed with fountain house
and radio totalnormal. but the only reason it happened
is i was taking higher and higher doses of 3 different
neuroleptics. risperdal (questionable med against
an everexpanding definition of "psychosis")
some liquid sleeping med that wasnt "addictive"
except it was a tiny vial which you easily OD'd on
its halflife was like 12 hours so even if you slept
for 8 hours (i slept perfectly before and still do)
you were a zombie during most of the day. right.
theralen. then an anti anxiety pill that worked
the first time i took it then never more.
my body gets resistant to things quickly even
phenomena and music. this is related to hyperlaxativity
(a psychiatric term you wont find any documentation
of it online) which really just means im a pisces
in the moon sign. the taurus sun sign just means
your outer appearance and behaviours it has nothing
to do with your inner thoughts workings your organs
your soul. and even when having sex, both julia & bella
said "do i feel like a black hole inside"? and like i said
recently the only reason i got together with them
is i started taking drugs. for julia coffee and cigs
was enough. to get on bellas huge frequency i needed
to get a tattoo and literally put aluminium acetotartrate
on it. then also played with the smartphone at work except
i cant handle them they ruin me in a few minutes.
i was also drinking coffee and the day before i tripped
on homemade opium. anyway everything clashed together
but synchronicity is the only way to find someone
that means something to you. anyway as for the nanochip
it has as many good as negative properties. just now
i was gonna go to sleep, i turned off the comp, rested
literally 10 seconds, turned on the comp again, and
in that time i had renewed energy. i cant explain this
in any other way. the chemichal dousing made the black
ink leak into my bloodstream so it was like i had
injected gasoline. again i dont do drugs i see no
point in it but since i got the straight edge tattoo
the exact opposite happened as many things in my life.
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