Corruption in the state

"the meaning of a private company is to be effective and to make profit

the meaning of a governmental company is to be ineffective and to waste money"

first, i want to link my website

https://svenskadikter.com/emma

i have worked on this for a few years,but it is stil lless than 1% of my (quality) writings. about 2000 pages, some art, a significant portion of my 50 album discography as well.

anyway, i dont have access to all the links in which i i have critiqued the psychiatric and somatic care.

now though, it has just gone too far.

first i got to know about northvolt. essentially, this company was to make "green" steel, but after years of pumping retirement fund money into it, they had produced nothing at all. and now? they have to increase the retirement age in sweden.

the retirement home i am at, is just a lower level than the previous company. northvolt is the ultimate. what did they do there? they wasted their money on coke and hookers, that is it.

what happens here? and in sweden, and probably, the whole western world or even beyond?

1. the staff get free electric cigarettes and refills. this is the newest. i have seen a woman smoke this at a previous place, she puffed constantly for a whole 45 minutes. this is all payed for by the municipality. like the rest i will mention.

2. now it gets more interesting. the staff often take drugs to "enhance" their mood. they are seemingly the most neurotic and cowardly people on the planet. in order to be able to "discuss" things with me, in a calm tone, 2 of the staff some days ago, had both take cocaine. one of them yells in every word otherwise. the discussion was over in a minute or two, but they needed these drugs in order to even function? these are directly from the drug-lords in south america, so 99% purity and potency. last year they took amphetamine at least 4 times, in order to be able to yell me out. im sure they could have worked hours on it, but i managed to deflect them after 30-45 minutes. first i got anxiety, then i started crying, then they continued even more. no empathy whatsoever. monsters, literally.

3. this i obviously dont know much about. but i still know some things. pills. yes. and meds. anything from the somatic system. and psychiatric too. these include adrenochrome and fentanyl, and even stronger things. the main thing, they induce everyone in closed psychiatric care, is cisordinol. the accutard version. is water based, and when injected into a person, they go into a coma for 3 whole days. during this time the staff does whatever they want to you. obviously impossible to find any evidence here. no hacking group dares to hack a hospital. yes, they are more powerful than the CIA etc. and above them is sodexo, the most disgusting fake food on the planet. some is documented here.

https://svenskadikter.com/Sodexo

since i jumped 2 years ago, i have for about 1½ years said i was constipated. the staff never cared. never nutricious food, i have met a physio therapist about 20 times. most of it was in the hospital in the beginning. then finally, i was poisoned with some sort of desensitization cream dropped into water. after 1 sip it tasted like silicone, so i stopped. got more paralyzed in my legs afterwards. i do not know why it is possible for a somatic system to have such a medication, it should be a bannable terrorism drug.

then, wouldnt you know, i got the opposite later. also smelling of silicone, it instead increased my senses? but really, it did next to nothing. this was smeared on my penis by one of the staff without my cooperation.

yes, sex, this is where it gets juicy. i have only slept with 2 women all my life, and that i am happy for. how many in the psychiatric and somatic system have wanted to sleep with me? above 100. when i could still walk, at the last place, i had prepared for weeks of what to say to someone working in soc (social cares) so i could get to a better place.

surprise, the first person i have ever met who was an opiate addict. i talked for a minute but it was hopeless, all she said was "oh" "ah" "how nice".

after this, the staff had group-sex with her. yes, this is more custom than anything else. everyone in the state aparatus has sex with everyone else. constantly. the ultimate is in the police, they can have orgies with a 100 or even 1000 people.

a previous time, at the housing previous to this, i was also to talk to someon working in social services. wouldnt you know, she was just examined. a real looker. seemingly, i scared her, but the abomingly looking latino, she was mesmerized by. after the ending of the meeting, he asked for her phone number on a paper. she looked confused, "dont you have it in your system?". no, they now had "her" in their "system".

 as for cisordinol again, it is based on dried amber. it just tastes sweet. incredibly powerful. after having woken up from the coma, 2 things always happen, not depending on order:

1 person gets exceedingly vicious. depending on how much they have worked in their past, 5-100 people can be needed to stop them. i am not exhagerating.

2 person gets exceedingly sexual. dont need to disclose more here.

and this is basically how every neuroleptic work. at least the ones based on aborted fetal tissue. yes, that is the main reason behind abortion, to create meds. anyone whos ever been in closed psychiatric care, or been forced into various pills, will smell like a corpse. a baby corpse even. the walls in your apartment, the hospital, your skin, all get this disgusting green / beige / yellow / grey shade.

just got interupted by the staff. you can never ever predict them. of course them interupting me when i did something of value was sort of predictable. the only thing you can predict from the elderly care, is that they will never ever put in effort.

they work 10% of the time if even that. 2 of the staff dont ever bother with that. if you are to take care of people, why dont these people care for others? thus the tenants of drug abuse:

1, drugs, 2, sex, 3 torture. first they take drugs, then they expect to sleep with anything they come into contact with. not being able to achieve this, because the person is not as high / drunk as them or simply says "no", always changes their modus operandi to 3, torture.

yes, 2 of them in particular. there are always 2 who should change me. so one wipes poo, while the other should just hang onto my body so i can lean to the left side. these 2 individuals, cant even bother with this. they just stand there doing nothing. of course, them being drunk / high as hell, they are in a marvelous world, if they can fantasize enough.

just this morning i got the worst torture ever. first, i was not supposed to get breakfast before showering on friday, but afterwards. it was never like this in the past. i tell them i want breakfast first, ok, they oblige.

then they are to take me to the wheelchair. i just woke up, ate some, and im in a great mood. i try to talk to the staff, and what do they do? they interupt me. this has happened many many times in the past.

the junkies cannot handle anyone being happy, or calm, or intelligent, or even having their eyes open or talking or doing anything.

they except you to lie in bed, all day long, masturbating, looking at porn, thinking about them. then they are more prominent in coming to help you.

otherwise they started a new torture. again, no breakfast, change you at 8 in the morning. then they wait until 19:30 to change you again. so if they do the change quickly, you have to wait 11½ hours with piss and poo, and vomit if youre really lucky, infesting your lungs body bed and room.

they have no hygiene rules whatsoever.

in the opposite way, i have wanted to sleep the entire night. they cannot handle this in any way. i suppose it has to do with me not being allowed to even exist beyond being their loosh slave.

i still oppose it, and have done so, for 2 weeks. only 1 of those days have i not been interupted during the night.

i do not piss or shit myself during sleep, i just sleep. so the other day i was only changed, again, before eating dinner, at 17:00. so i would surely need to be changed before morning.

against all odds, somehow the municipality, stopped all places here from buying in orange juice. c-vitamin is the essence of life. i need a lot of it. i dont take any drugs or stimulants. but i am only allowed 1 glass of orange juice per day. why? "it contains a lot of sugar". i see this all over social media, and also on youtube and in memes. if you ever looked on an orange juice package, you would see its 10% sugar.

i have never heard a peep about "soda contains a lot of sugar", so this is a psyop on the highest level.

i will only be able to write today. i wish i could shower twice a week or even every day. it wouldnt take much effort from them. i can wash myself. i could shower for a few minutes. wouldnt use up their time in any way. showering makes me alive more than anything else. i had completely given up all sense of living and the world. i was so low earlier today that i felt like killing someone. should probably not write this, and i dont see how anyone i write this to would care about it either.

obviously the junkies who work here got scared, since i somehow affect reality with this, even if it only seems to get worse.

the most telling of their perversions was last year, i ask "why dont you come when i beep you?" "we always come when you beep us". of course, the person who said that, and one other, except everything ive mentioned they take, also drink while at work. another, a night staff, is so gone, and so lazy, i have felt alcohol breath on her, and i think shes even another opiate addict.

her breath just disgusts me, and that is the main reason i want to sleep during the night. if i get awoken by them, when i wake up, i have to sleep another 8 hours. not much use in living then.

yes, the greatest thing is the beeper. it takes 30 minutes to 11½ hours, like i said, from me beeping to the staff caring at all. often they wait 1 hour after youve abadnoned all hope, before coming. i am sure this is because they are involved then in masturbation, sex, or even orgies. 2 of these people even take it further, even having waited half a job pass for them to come, they storm into the door, ask "WHAT DO YOU NEED HELP WITH?" or "WE ARE A LITTLE BUSY", and yes, even then, you do not get any help.

ok, getting more tired now. i have no hopes in this making my world better in any way. seemingly i affect others with this, im a "prophet": the walls are closing in though, and today, for the first time this year, i thought about suicide. they want worse things to happen to me. yesterday the boss came by, and said "if you piss us off again, the staff will never ever enter your room". of course, like you heard before, they can act however they want. if they wanted, like northvolt, to just take drugs and have sex and waste government money, they would. no one would stop them. this is what they do 90% of the time though, or rather 100% of the time. they put on a completely pathetic non-job. they destroy rather than improve the lives of people they are supposed to care for.

and like me, most people are stuck with 20 pills a day plus injections. i feel sorry for the people who cant talk for their cause, or are just too afraid or shy. just changing 1 single pill 1mg lower can take months. while you always have the chance of them forcing even more pills on you.

at the previous housing, they deliberately fed me with food i could not handle. i got more and more constipated. for 5 whole days, i puked. the only thing the staff said was "try to eat some", so i puked even more. then i got to the hospital, but all they said was "your potassium levels are low, you need to take these pills".

if i remember correctly, these were all 750mb. a huge dose. and the second time i puked? then for 3 whole days. both of these times i had worked out, lost weight, and gained muscle weight. for some reason, even this, neither the psychiatric or somatic staff cannot handle.

the staff are exceedingly priviliged. they seemingly all are married, have several kids. and they also work out so much (with the help of things like amphetamine) they can kill you with a single hit. yes, a few days ago that happened. one staff got pissed off at me, and yelled "the next time ill punch you so hard your head will drop off your neck".

yes, at most i got forced into 4.5gr of potassium per day. they did not want to "heal" me in any way with this. my poop turned transparent, then a really peculiar staff yells out "he poops water, quick, lets never give him water anymore!". i had to barter with the nurse to convince them that water is not toxic, this took 2 weeks of nagging every day to even get to see her though.

i know at least higher level staff in the somatic and psychiatric system are incredibly well read. the problem is, they are not allowed to ever speak any of this wisdom to the people they are supposed to take care of?

as for the potassium, i was told "without this, your heart will stop". when i read up on FASS, it said the exact opposite, with too much potassium in your body, you will get a host of problems, including your heart stopping.

it is finally approaching summer in sweden, and during the day, its hotter. wouldnt you know though, whenever i beep the staff then, they never come, to open the window, for me to get any of this hot air or birds tweeting. to them, anything related to windows is only applicable for smoking inside. as "fresh air" just means "going outside for a smoke". this i thought a lot about last year, because the staff only have some semblance of intelligence, when they pushed me in the wheelchair during summer. this only happened 2 times though.

most of the time, the staff are too spun to do their job, and if you try to talk to them, they will disappear quickly. if youre lucky you can beep them and they come in 30 minutes again. never any faster. they seemingly have to smoke electrical cigarettes for that long to be alright again. or whatever drugs, pills, or yes, the main attraction. this i noticed at a previous job too. no one actually drinks coffee anymore, they all drink fultjack, liquid amphetamine.

the only 2 women ive slept with, i at one time asked the same question, "you never have anxiety, right?" they both basically replied the same "i always have anxiety".

this tells me an immense thing about todays society. no one is ever actually ok. a drug high disappears quickly. sex with a 1000th partner? why? what could that give you? now drinking up to 30 beers a night instead of 20 beers a decade ago? why? at the end of the day, youll pay that with paranoia. i have tried getting drunk about 4 times. it was not the "romantic" puking in the toilet though. oh no, i woke up, unable to breath, running to the window to open it, after 2 minutes my face isnt blue anymore, and then i have both puked and pissed myself. whatever pleasures you get from drugs drinking and smoking, nothing is worth that feeling.

if i had 24/7 anxiety, i would be dead in a few weeks. yes, it really is that strong.

for me, i do not care for meme wellness spam, about "dont use your mind, thats ego, use your heart only".

for me, i like thinking. thinking and writing. nearly no "normal" emotions are derived from this. there is some sort of emotions involved in it, but it cannot be derived through taking drugs. the greatest feeling is being straight edge again, going outside your door, and just feeling the wind on your skin. it is so subtle, and is so easy to lose, when you lose yourself, your soul, your self determination, your freedom of expression.

i do not believe the deep state are trying to neither kill or enslave or stupify us. we have that choice ourselves.

i know this is probably the weirdest mail youve ever gotten. i have written in more genres than exist, and i shift a lot to. at nearly 42 years old, i am finally grown up. i see no point in computers games, and neither porn, sex, or masturbation. and now, i am supposed to die?

tomas emma johansson
artist musician poet
truther spirit channeler

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